That I will never know,
Mommy is sorry.
The short time I loved you,
You will never know.
I made a selfish decision.
I should’ve thought it through.
I’m so very sorry my baby.
Never will I see your bright shining eyes,
Never will I touch your skin so soft.
Would you have looked like your mommy?
Or would you have taken after your daddy?
Would you be my little princess?
Or would you have been you daddy’s football star?
I will never know.
My sweet innocent child,
I regret the decision I made every single day.
I will always love you.
That I hope you will always know. (Poem by Babzie14)
Aunt Flo is still visiting
I hate it when she comes over
It’s just another reminder that you’re no longer here
It was amazing how you made yourself known to me
How you could take control of my own body
Expanding and stretching the contours of my shape
Making yourself “right at home”
As you should have
I could feel you inside
Exuding vibrations of life
I felt like a glowing ray of sunshine
Producing life and hope in a single package of beauty
But as one day leaves and another day comes
In one moment, you were gone
That day held so much trauma and disappointment
I believed I would die
But I didn’t die, you did…
I still don’t understand how you could go,
But you have gone and
Now that you’re gone, some days
It’s like you were never even there
Who could tell?
My body was stubborn and defiant
Morphing it’s self back, against my wishes
I would have toted that beautiful round shape you blessed me with
To the grave, as a reminder of you
A monument of your work during your short time on earth
Instead, nature had it’s way and has erased all traces of you
Except a Memory
I miss you…
Sometimes I hold myself and
Try to image your tiny fingerprints
Have left evidence of you on the inside walls
I try to touch them because
It’s the closet I ever got
To holding you… (Poem by Jasmine Christian)
Yesterday Was Hard,
Today Seems Like A Breeze,
Now I Have Come To Realise,
You Were Taken Away With Ease,
No One Seemed To Care,
No One Else Even cried,
Although I Stand Here Alone,
I Know I Fully Tried,
I Held You CLose Through The Day,
Also Through The Night,
Now I Know Letting Go Of You
Was Something I Did Right (Poem by heartbrokenmumma)
I have a secret.
Do you want me to tell you, Mommy?
It’s that I love you, Mommy, even though I haven’t even seen you yet,
because you keep me safe and warm, hidden in the darkness.
Mommy, I’m sorry! I’m so, so sorry! I can feel you… I’m hurting you, aren’t I?
Every time I move, I can feel you gasping around me, trying to hide the pain.
But that won’t work with me, Mommy. You can’t hide it from me.
I can feel your sorrow, and I can hear the voices penetrating my darkness.
They’re feeding you lies, Mommy! Don’t believe them! Don’t trust them!
They say that I’m not alive, but here I am—
Mommy, why are you crying?
A man apologizing: the doctor. There are wailing voices,
but your crying blocks them all out. There’s only you; there’s only ever been you.
Mommy, please stop crying… I’m right here.
Your emotions are like the tide, the waves on the ocean, churning and plunging,
taking me along for the ride. Slow down, Mommy, you’re making me dizzy!
What’s wrong? Why are you so upset?
Mommy, I can hear them talking! I don’t like them; they’re cold and heartless
and they’re saying things about me. They say… they say…
Mommy, what’s an abortion?
Something thin and cold and sharp invaded my darkness, my privacy inside of you—
they called it a needle. Mommy, tell it to go away!
Make it stop! Stop! It hurts, Mommy, it burns! Help me!
Don’t let them take me away from you! (Poem by Martina)
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